A Prodigal’s Lament

I’ve been following Jesus for over 35 years now. It’s not getting easier. Funny, I thought it would, but it doesn’t. It seems to me that the more I want to love Him and serve Him the more my flesh rebels. The more I want to pray or worship, the less I seem to do it.

I know I’m not alone. Paul wrote in Romans 7 that he felt very similar to this when he said, “The things I want to do, I don’t. And the things I don’t want to do, I do.” Well, that’s comforting, at least a little.

I wrote a song this past week for all of us who are willing to admit that we stray in our hearts from the One we love the most, like the story of the prodigal son Jesus talked about. I can be a prodigal for minutes, hours, or days. I look back on my life and see entire seasons I just wanted my own way. Maybe this life of following Jesus is sometimes about being honest that we struggle to really do it.

Hope you enjoy the song – I wrote the last verse after I made the recording, but I hope to get fiddle on this next week and will repost. I’ve posted the lyric below and the MP3.

Happy Easter, saints and sinners!


Prodigal’s Lament
(The Sound of the Wind Through the Trees)

I’ve lived my life on the edge of the storm
And I’ve walked through the valley of death
I’ve huddled my soul in the shadows so cold
And I’ve cradled some lasting regrets

I’ve walked away from my lover’s sweet arms
And I’ve crushed all my loved ones with pain
I’ve traded my heart for a prison so dark
And I’ve given my life up to shame

But Love, O Love, You’re calling me
It brings me to my knees
I hear Your voice in the air tonight
In the sound of the wind through the trees

I’ve cried alone in the depths of the night
And I’ve felt burning tears on my face
I’ve cherished my sins and I’d do it again
If it weren’t for Your sweet loving grace


Now I see You there at the end of the road
With Your heart and Your arms open wide
I could never deserve half the love that You give
Or count half the tears that You’ve cried


John Chisum
April 14, 2014
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